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close to million miles...

... TO HEAVEN

i can't describe the feeling of being close to God. somehow the beauty that He allows me to see captures the very essence of His love not only for me but for all the people in this world. To tell you the truth, i have been unaware that God is presently moving in my life. Sometimes i wonder on why He placed me in where I am now... contrary to all my desires, to all my wants.. my OWN wants. knowing that God could envelop me in His arms.

just last weekend, i experienced His love in Baguio during the cfc weekend. it's all about LOVE and LOVING. it's all about giving your passion and just let God to move in you. to have a BIG heart. TO LOVE UNTIL IT HURTS.

and it's crazy... really crazy!

this was His message all along. LOVE. and it's a big word. an easy word to say but hard to do. I have learned to be patient, to sacrifice, and to obey. got to let go of all my pride, my own strength and my own abilities just to let God and His Love overflow me. again i have experienced and have been reminded that THIS IS NOT ABOUT ME. That this is all about LOVING HIM in the way He wants me to love. Knowing that I can get hurt, knowing that I can feel pain, knowing that I could not have whatever I wanted. Letting God take over and to give me what He wanted to give me.

The height of this experience was the amazing Baguio. I felt like i'm in Africa again. just seeing the mountains, feeling the cold weather... me heart did really miss kenya. that is why i felt so blessed during that weekend. God affirmed me of my mission, of where He wants me to be now. I started to ground and put myself to where God is placing me. wow! and it's just a wonderful feeling to find Him in everything...

i can now say that God wants me to find Him in areas that I have never found Him before. That He could also speak to me even inside a small room without seeing anything literally inspiring. That He could show His face anywhere... Seeing God in a different way now is also growing with Him in a different way. I could not help but shed tears as i imagine how He moved. Each step, each growth, each strength that He gives us all is indescribable.

And even though I know Heaven is still a million, billion.... miles a way... i felt closer to that.

Make me more in love with you, Jesus.... make me love more of your people.